update

So I still haven't been able to speak to the CW. Apparently she's been promoted and they are down three...so yeah, it's been really rough communicating. Well, there hasn't been communication. David and I have decided that if chosen, we will adopt her. It's really up to the agency and/or the judge. I don't know if the other homestudy has been completed (for the other family). I don't know if the judge would choose us. It's also crazy because this could effect our trip to Spain. If we are in the middle of adoption we won't go. If they want to remove her we may leave without knowing where she'll be (back at the shelter? in a new foster home?)

So many uknowns. The sovereignty and will of God is all I can trust. Hopefully we will have some questions answered when someone comes to visit on Thursday. Although, she just works at the agency and doesn't know anything about our case.

There is an important meeting on May 2, involving the CW and her supervisor. I am not sure what they will be talking about, but I know it's about H.

On a deleted post, Mom mentioned choosing a date and fasting as a family. I am totally for this. Or at least praying. I know adopting her is a HUGE deal. I also know it's not up to us. They will choose a family for H and ultimately God will lead them in the right direction. David and I are going to fast and pray on Sunday if anyone wants to join us. Or whenever. If God speaks insight to you about this decision, please share with us!
Thanks. Love ya all. It's really great to be part of such a special family

upside down

My life feels upside down and I feel at a complete loss of control. Another unexpected arrive yesterday. We will not be transitioning H to live with her grandma. Her grandma isn't ready...and the state isn't ready. So what does that mean for her?? Well either another foster home or with a relative she's never met in another state. It's all the same to H...going to an unknown place. There is a slit possibility that we could take her with us. At least, I have this idea spinning in my mind...the officials have to agree and make it happen.
When I got the news I broke down. I just hate that her future is so fragile and so unclear. I am at the mercy of my Lord. A good place to be, but a very scary place. Will He really protect her? Is He really going to make sure she ends up in a family that is good to her? I don't think He promises that. Does He? Are there no guarantees while you are here, but only a guarantee for those who believe and will receive eternal life? I am a human of the now. Take care of her now! I guess it would be better to live a horrible life, but come to know Jesus and be saved then to have a great life and never know your Creator. Are those the options? Of course not. Are those the options for H? I don't know anymore.
I know God is asking me to trust Him and allow Him to take care of her. I am not ready to let go. I want her with me. I want to know she is safe and loved. Even though she is a child of the state she has wiggled her way into my heart as my daughter. And I love her as such. I want for her the way I will want for my own.
So prayer for our H. Pray for her life. And pray for whether you think we should consider taken her to MI (if the opportunity arrives). Yes, I am asking for truth.
Thanks for loving her.

Steven's Request 2

What are your three favorite days, not recurring days, but days of your life that you look back on with particular nostalgia?

1. Trinidad, Cuba April 2003. When I met David. The night David and I stayed up until 4 AM talking on the beach. I was very broken and he was the first person I laid my heart on. As silly as it sounds, I knew there was something special between us. We shared our life stories and immediatly bonded.



2. Meeting H. October 24, 2006. Going to the shelter and being lead to a small young girl in a room with 5 other children. She looked up and me and I knew she would come home with us. It didn't happen for another week.



3. My wedding day.

On God's Faithfulness

I truly worship a God of love. A God who enjoys blessing me. Lately we have had blessing after blessing.

The crash: Not getting into the University of Arizona
1. Knowing God wants us in Detroit, MI

Not knowing where we will live
1. Having lots of connections in Detroit through David's family
2. Being able to fly out to Detroit to visit the city- and our school is giving us 1.5 days off!

Having to give up my dogs
1. Finding Parker a home at our dear friends, the Lewis'- they already love him dearly
2. David's parents volunteered to take in my Lucy

Knowing the drive to Detroit will be long and lonely
1. Having friends volunteer to road trip with you out to Michgain

Not knowing how to pay 50G a year for school
1. The Air Force wants to offer David a scholarship (if he can find his diplomas!!)

Our little girl
1. God had already showed us she would be transitioniong in June

The Blessings God has for us in Michigan
1. The cottage (David's family has a cottage in Interlochen)
2. David's family
3. The inner city- We both feel called to work in the inner city

Steven's Request

My three favorite places:


1. Madrid, Spain
2. La Habana and Trinidad, Cuba
3. Yucatan Peninsula especially Merida, Mexico


Yes, all outside the United States. There is something about each of those places that has changed me. I could live in any of those places. Although, legally, I can only choose 2/3. :)