10.25.2006

burdened by visit one

So we visited H yesterday afternoon. She's beautiful. :) She can't talk. She mumbles a few words here and there- some that even make sense- but definetely not sentences. She regresses to diapers periodically. I am told this is not unusual of children her age. The most difficult thing to imagine is her aggression. Apparently she can get aggressive with some of the kids. If a child hits her on Monday and she sees the child on Wednesday- she will hit the child on Wednesday. We had her cracking up and enjoying our brief visist. After talking with our friends at the Seneca House- our pastor, his wife, our friend who works for CPS, and some others that were there I understand a bit more about her behaviors. Our good friend with CPS has met hundreds of children and helped us understand some of her behaviors....but for the long term there is no telling if the will diminish or continue.... it really depends on her. I am feeling burdened by this whole case. The time we spent with her she was great. How can such an innocent child be so aggresive??? At 3 years old??? David wants to do foster care, but he doesn't think we can handle the really tough cases. I agree. We need to find out more about her aggresion. How often does she get violent? How do they help her to calm down? The developmental delays don't worry me in terms of accepting her in our home. I can work with her on that. I am not sure where God has us in this whole thing. To be honest, if we don't take her in...who will? What home takes only 1 child? Not many. She's been in the shelter for 3 months and no other foster families have been to visit her. This is not the reason to take her in, but it breaks my heart. Sometimes I get so frustrated with all that God reveals to me. The injustice done to children is hard to take in. For some reason He has called us in this direction.... I think this is only the beginning of the stories we will here. I will talk to all kinds of people today to find out more info. I hope this takes us in a direction. Keep us and H in your prayers.

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