choosing a child

Hmmm so I spoke with our licensing worker (LW) yesterday, and told her we would probably be ready early next week. We have been redoing a section of our house and so it's quite messy and chaotic. N came as an emergency placement. She was removed from her home and brought to our house that evening. We were to have her at least until the court hearing to find out if she would go home or be placed in the system. It was really hard to do emergency becuase there are so many unknowns. There are children who are in the system, but in group homes and shelters because there aren't enough families. This time we are going to receive a child or 2 children that are already in the system, but don't have a home. So I asked Karen, our LW, how this process works. She has a list of all the children and will look for siblings that fit our criteria 0-10 years and we can't have different genders if one is over the age of 6...it gets complicated. So then she calls the child's case manager and finds out more of the case. Then either the case manager calls us or we are given the name and number to call. The point is that ultimately, we say, "Yes, sounds like a good fit." What is a good fit for us? Honestly, I am a little untrusting. I placed this whole thing in God's hands and he gave us everything that we needed and more...but the pain that was caused when we had something so good. Part of me wants to have a child/children that are tough so that I won't miss them so much when they go. I would ask that you pray for us and give us wisdom when the phone call comes. Chances are, we will say yes to whatever children are needed. The number of children needing homes is overwhelming, and the ongoing question with anyone who has a choice when adopting or fostering is, "Well, why not this child?" I pray that God would once again give us a great placement for our family so that we can love them with all we have, and welcome them into a home of love. I look forward to the opportunities that each of you have to spend time with the kids. I think you'll sense the urgency to love the broken. I am thankful that I worship a God of the broken. :)
I can't wait to find out what happens!!!